How many times a day do each of us resist ourselves? Whether it be simply dismissing a compliment given by another or by denying ourselves the chance to truly be, just as we are.
I attended the inaugural Speakers Tribe conference last weekend in the Gold Coast. The theme of the conference was TRANSCENDENCE - I AM THE ONE. I have to say it completely blew me away and I know things won't ever be the same again.
Transcendence comes from the Latin prefix trans-, meaning "beyond," and the word scandare, meaning "to climb." When you achieve transcendence, you have gone beyond ordinary limitations. Transcendence is the act of rising above something to a superior state.
Being part of the speakers tribe I arrived at the conference with excitement for spending time in the proximity of people who I know have an energy that is nourishing beyond measure. I had a sense of calm knowing that I'd be learning and knowing I'd be fulfilling the intentions of my word of the year which is 'growth.' And whilst the conference theme was transcendence - it wasn't something I had expected for myself, yet the journey over the weekend was a journey I could no longer resist.
It started the evening before day one of the conference when I met a new fellow tribe member who graced me with his gift, as a naturopath and spiritual healer he used his gift to help me see I had a huge spiritual journey to go on and that I was blocking my growth by resisting myself. How was I resisting myself I asked? I discovered it wasn't a question for him to answer but one I needed to answer for myself. So I put it out there for the universe to help me see clearer.
At the end of day one I found myself flooded with emotion, the day had included a beautiful reflection exercise that really helped me go deep and unwrap the first layer of resistance. I found that I was holding myself back from sharing my message, I realised that even though I believed in my message wholeheartedly, I still wasn't believing in me. I doubted in my ability to deliver my message with impact and I felt inadequate being surrounded by others who I deemed to be more worthy. As the realisation hit, that I was doing a disservice, not only to myself but others too by not sharing my message, the tears flowed - I realised I was so consumed by not being good enough that I stopped seeing that the words I had to share would not only help others relate to the reality we all face from time to time but help them find a way forward to transform their own lives.
On day two as I readied myself for my morning run I was given another gift from a friend, who suggested I listen to some music on my morning run rather than the podcast I was intending to listen to, she had recognised it was a big learning weekend and that it was important for me to rest my mind whilst I exercised my body. As I began my run I selected 'flow' for my music which meant it would randomly play music that was similar to my existing library. As I started my second kilometre, I heard the words...
'Risin' up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive
So many times, it happens too fast
You trade your passion for glory,
Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive.....
You've probably guessed the next line already it's The Eye of the Tiger - from the Rocky IV movie. Now aside from taking the opportunity to fist pump the air several times as I ran and laughed out loud, I took this as a very clear sign from the universe because there was nothing on my existing collection of music that was anything like that song, my selection of faves are usually singer songwriter acoustic numbers! I've highlighted the line that stood out for me - the message I took from this line was that perhaps I'd been playing safe, staying in the space where I was validated, given glory - certainly my career in finance would be represented by this line. Though to be clear, I have absolutely no regrets about choosing finance it has served me well over the years and continues to do so, but what I also know is that it is not my core passion - it's not what makes my heart sing and I know I've been resisting embracing my passion because it takes me away from what's certain and secure in my life into new uncharted waters.
On day three, I had the pleasure of meeting Allan Pease after his keynote, Allan's written countless best selling books and speaks on stages all over the world as an expert on body language. His latest book 'The Answer - How to discover what you want from life and make it happen' was yet another not so subtle sign from the universe!
On day four, the last day, another fellow tribster gave me the gift of her truth - she shared that ever since she's known me, approx ten months, that the word that comes to mind is fragility, She told me that it was time to wash away that fragility and step into my power. That was the most illuminating sign, you see I know I was born with inner steel and I know I have a ferocity in me that shows up when things get tough and tells me to keep going. Fragility was not a word I was familiar with, nor was it one that anyone had used in association with me previously, but when she said it was what she saw I knew it was true because she wasn't referring to how I show up for the world she was referring to how I showed up for myself and how that was fragile. I'd given up my power somewhere along my journey and I'd resisted in taking it back.
If you are familiar with this quote from Marianne Williamson you'll understand why....
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure."
When I got home that evening, I stepped into the shower and allowed the water to wash away my fragility and I let the water keep running until I felt the last remains of fragility leave my body and set me free.
I made a decision that evening to surrender and no longer resist who I am, it's a decision I am standing by fiercely, I'm embracing my inner lion and stepping into my power, all for me to be SIMPLY IRRESISTIBLE.
Your turn now, what's holding you back? What are you resisting? What would you surrender to be SIMPLY IRRESISTIBLE?